Embracing Life by Jayne Nicky

Author:Jayne, Nicky [Jayne, Nicky]
Language: eng
Format: epub, mobi
Publisher: Nicky Jayne
Published: 2013-09-28T23:00:00+00:00

PRAISING the car gods as I speed out of the parking lot, I thank all above that my little beetle started on the first try. I could not get out of that parking lot fast enough, and my trusty rusty beetle did not fail me. Approaching an intersection, I slowly release my foot from the gas pedal and down shift. I am surprised that I can even function to this point. My mind is racing with confusion and hazy images of Josh. His face blurs as he speaks the words that made me run, “I have loved you.” Did I hear him correctly?

As his words sweep through my head, I tense and grip the steering wheel so tight that the blood drains from my knuckles. I can feel the stitching on the wheel biting into the skin of my fingers. Gritting my teeth, I curse at the light. It’s taking too damn long to change. I suddenly understand the concept of the fight or flight, and I choose flight. “Change! Damn it!” I yell at the inanimate object standing between me and my escape. To add to my frustration, my cell phone won’t shut up. I can hear the muffled ring from the back seat. Blowing the hair from my eyes, I ignore it and concentrate on watching the light that seems stuck on red.

Anxiously, I wait. My feet dance on the floorboard, and when the light finally changes, I stomp on the gas. The car stutters and stalls. “Damn It!” The cars behind me echo their frustrations with honks as I struggle to get moving. Slowly sputtering off the starting line, I take a deep breath. I cannot be this out of control. I think back to the relationship between Josh and me. It’s nonexistent, so how can he say he loves me? He doesn’t know me. Katie... I need Katie to help me, but how? I have barely spoken to her since the gym. Does she even want to talk to me? How will she react to Josh’s behavior?

Hold on! Why am I so worried about their reaction? They started this. They have obviously known for a while that Josh has feelings for me. I should be mad at her and Mike. They kept this from me for so long. But I can’t; they did what they thought was best. Still, I am a big girl, and regardless of my past, I have to, at some point, make my own decisions. I am moving to Texas without them, and they won’t be there to protect or rescue me. Maybe this is all my fault. By allowing them to know my secret, I have allowed them to guide my life. If I have learned anything the last couple of days, it’s that I am not as weak as I have made myself believe. There may be hope for me yet. The internal struggle of who is right versus who has wronged me continues to bounce around my hazy mind.

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